“Life will break you. Nobody can protect you from that, and living alone won’t protect you either, for solitude will also break you with its yearning. You have to love. You have to feel. It is the reason you are here on earth. You are here to risk your heart. You are here to be swallowed up. And when it happens that you are broken, or betrayed, or left, or hurt, or death brushes near, let yourself sit by an apple tree and listen to the apples falling all around you in heaps, wasting their sweetness. Tell yourself you tasted as many as you could.”
Louise Edrich, The Painted Drum
I know that sometimes in our society today, self-harm and depression are romanticized in a way that people think it is “cool” to hate yourself. But it isn’t ans you shouldn’t. You have a purpose for existing and even if you don’t know the purpose, your life is still worth living. In The Count of Monte Cristo the main character Dantes is so caught up in things that he thinks that death is the only option, the only way out. Then, through the maturity and forgiveness of others he knows that death is not an option and he also helps his friend and convinces him that his life is worth living. “Live, for a day will come when you will be happy and bless life.” Dantes wrote this in a letter to his friend. This encapsulates the message that I am trying to get across, that although you may not be happy right now and you may think you have hit rock bottom, there are still reasons to live and that you are worthy of life, or that life is worthy of you. But only you can change the way that you are feeling. Only you have the power to pick yourself up and dust yourself off and you are capable of it. And once you do, you will be so incredibly glad that you did.
Don’t forget to smile because your life is worth living! 🙂